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In the mind of a killer *Not for sensitive readers

On Friday the 23rd of May, Elliot Rodger went on a killing spree in Santa Barbara, shortly after making this video and writing his 137 page manifesto. I spent three days reading and summarizing his “life story” so you don’t have to.

It’s divided into the following 6 parts:

Part 1: Birth – 11

Elliot reveals that he is spoiled and entitled, and has been from a very young age. He develops a fantasy version of himself, in which he is superior and most worthy of admiration, and he begins to show resentment and anger towards anything that contradicts this fantasy. 

He becomes obsessed with trying to force reality to match his fantasy. He tries to identify what will make him popular and admires and attempts to acquire these things. 

His shows a tendency towards throwing temper tantrums, sulking and whining as techniques to get his own way, and he also spends a great deal of time indulging in fantasies of the life he desires. 

During this time, Elliot sees girls as “other” and has no interest in them, though he has no hatred for them either. 

A quote:

“The first birthday I remember was my 3rd birthday. My parents threw a party for me in our field. I had a helicopter birthday cake. I can remember one of my friend’s parents cutting off the first piece and giving it to my friend. I threw a tantrum because I was expecting to get the first piece…”

Read the full summary with his own chilling quotes here.

Part 2: 11 – 14

Elliot has friends throughout this period, but he is unsatisfied, as he really wants the admiration and status that would match his fantasy version of himself. He resents the popular and cool kids, and begins to annoy them on purpose. 

This invokes a reaction in him, and he finds himself teased. This invokes a greater reaction, and he begins to resent the world as an unfair and cruel place. He busies himself with playing computer games with his friends, but remains unsatisfied. 

During this period, Elliot goes from seeing girls as “other” and fairly pointless to seeing them as status symbols, and therefore objects he desires to possess. 

A quote:

“One of these girls was Monette Moio, a pretty blonde girl who was Ashton’s younger sister. She must have thought that I was an ultimate loser. I hated her so much, and I will never forget her. I started to hate all girls because of this. I saw them as mean, cruel, and heartless creatures that took pleasure from my suffering.”

Read the full summary with chilling quotes here.

Part 3: 14 – 17

Elliot continues to strongly desire the fantasy of himself to become a reality, and is more and more resentful and angry as this does not happen. 

To him, any evidence of a person having anything he desires and doesn’t have is an insult and an injustice. He becomes obsessed with possessing and having sex with a girl, specifically a “hot blonde”, and is furious when he discovers others are having sex while he is not. 

He continues to demonise anyone who has more than him. He tries to retreat further from his problems into ‘World of Warcraft’. Still not popular and admired, Elliot considers life to be viciously unfair and cruel.

At this point, Elliot views girls as sexual objects as well as status symbols.
 
A quote:

“The boys in my grade talked about sex a lot. Some of them even told me that they had sex with their girlfriends. This was the most devastating and traumatizing thing I’ve ever heard in my life. Boys having sex at my age of fourteen? I couldn’t fathom it. How is it that they were able to have such intimate and pleasurable experiences with girls while I could only fantasize about it?”

Read the full summary with chilling quotes here.

Part 4: 17 – 19

Elliot begins to fantasise about making sex illegal. He continues to strongly desire women, and to see them as sexual objects and status trophies. He tries to “earn” them through various methods, including dressing in nice clothes and waiting for them to approach him, and is deeply resentful and angry when they do not. 

He struggles to separate fantasy from reality. His hatred for anyone who does have sex grows to a point where he considers their very existence to be a direct insult on him, and he repeatedly quits college classes if there is a happy couple in the class. 

Elliot expects to be liked, admired, and approached by people who he hates. He viciously insults them in his mind constantly, but despises them when he believes they don’t like him. His anger, sense of entitlement and intensity causes him to begin to alienate those friends he does have, and even his family struggles to deal with him. 

He begins to obsess about becoming rich. His family begins to worry about him, and show signs of intervening in an attempt to help ground him, including signing him up for counselling and sending him to a college he’s always wanted to go to. 

Elliot looks forward to the new college, and sees it as an opportunity for life to give him what he believes he deserves. If it doesn’t, he resolves he will have revenge.

At this point, Elliot still views women as sexual objects. He feels he is entitled to possess them, and he resents them strongly for not giving themselves to him.

A quote:

“I began to have fantasies of becoming very powerful and stopping everyone from having sex. I wanted to take their sex away from him, just like they took it away from me. I saw sex as an evil and barbaric act, all because I was unable to have it. This was a major turning point. My anger made me stronger inside. This was when I formed my ideas that sex should be outlawed. It is the only way to make the world a fair and just place. If I can’t have it, I will destroy it. That’s the conclusion I came to, right then and there.”

Read the full summary with chilling quotes here.

Part 5: Age 19 – 22

Elliot gets angrier and angrier, and eventually decides to carry out a Day of Retribution during which he’ll go on a murderous rampage as an act of revenge on women for not giving him sex, and men for having sex when he does not. 

He spends some time playing the lottery in a hope to become rich, and he decides he will either become rich young or carry out this Day of Retribution. 

Eventually, an incident occurs during which he attacks some people, is attacked in return, and breaks his leg. He refuses psychiatric help, and he makes solid plans for the Day of Retribution, even buying himself guns.

His attitude towards women is now unbridled hatred, as he feels they have made his life a misery because they refuse to have sex with him.

A quote:

"How could an inferior, ugly black boy be able to get a white girl and not me? I am beautiful, and I am half white myself. I am descended from British Aristocracy. He is descended from slaves. I deserve it more. I tried not to believe his foul words, but they were already said, and it was hard to erase from my mind. If this is actually true, if this ugly black filth was able to have sex with a blonde white girl at the age of thirteen while I’ve had to suffer virginity all my life, then this just proves how ridiculous the female gender is. They would give themselves to this filthly scum, but they reject ME? The injustice!” 

Read the full summary with chilling quotes here.

Part 6: 22 years old - The Day of Retribution and Epilogue

First, he would murder people in his flat and remove their heads. Then he would murder his little brother and stepmother. Then he would drive to a sorority house and massacre all the girls there, and set the house on fire.

Then he would use his car and his guns to kill as many people as possible, until the police caught up to him and he would kill himself.

He thinks in a perfect world women shouldn’t be allowed to choose who to have sex with, and that intelligent men should make that decision for them. He considers them animals.

He also views women as a plague, who should be quarantined, and most of them starved to death. He utterly and completely loathes women.

A quote:

“Women should not have the right to choose who to mate and breed with. This decision should be made for them by rational men of intelligence. If women continue to have rights, they will only hinder the advancement of the human race by breeding with degenerate men and creating stupid degenerate offspring. This will cause humanity to become even more depraved with every generation. Women have more power in human society than they deserve, all because of sex. There is no creature more evil and depraved than the human woman.” 

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