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On Friday the 23rd of May, Elliot Rodger went on a killing spree in Santa Barbara, shortly after making this video and writing his 137 page manifesto. I spent three days reading and summarizing his “life story” so you don’t have to.
This summary is divided into five parts.
Read Part 4 here.
Part 5: 19 - 22 years old
The short summary:
Elliot gets angrier and angrier, and eventually decides to carry out a Day of Retribution during which he’ll go on a murderous rampage as an act of revenge on women for not giving him sex, and men for having sex when he does not.
He spends some time playing the lottery in a hope to become rich, and he decides he will either become rich young or carry out this Day of Retribution.
Eventually, an incident occurs during which he attacks some people, is attacked in return, and breaks his leg. He refuses psychiatric help, and he makes solid plans for the Day of Retribution, even buying himself guns.
His attitude towards women is now unbridled hatred, as he feels they have made his life a misery because they refuse to have sex with him.
The long summary:
Extended Summary
Elliot’s anger and hatred continues. Beautiful blonde women do not come and offer themselves to him in Santa Barbara, and other people that he considers less worthy than himself continue to have sex.
He mentions a few incidents in which he feels particularly, even more than usual, forced to suffer horrendous injustices. He recounts the following, naming it a “vile incident”.
“And then this black boy named Chance said that he lost his virginity when he was only thirteen! In addition, he said the girl he lost his virginity to was a blonde white girl! I was so enraged that I almost splashed him with my orange juice. I indignantly told him that I did not believe him, and then I went to my room to cry. I cried and cried and cried, and then I called my mother and cried to her on the phone.
How could an inferior, ugly black boy be able to get a white girl and not me? I am beautiful, and I am half white myself. I am descended from British Aristocracy. He is descended from slaves. I deserve it more. I tried not to believe his foul words, but they were already said, and it was hard to erase from my mind. If this is actually true, if this ugly black filth was able to have sex with a blonde white girl at the age of thirteen while I’ve had to suffer virginity all my life, then this just proves how ridiculous the female gender is. They would give themselves to this filthly scum, but they reject ME? The injustice!”
This incident in particular causes Elliot to conclude:
“Females truly have something mentally wrong with them. Their minds are flawed, and at this point in my life I was beginning to see it.”
Every happy couple is, he feels, a direct attack on him. He starts to become extremely aggressive towards them, and eventually the sight of a happy couple infuriates him so much, he throws his drink at them.
“I had never struck back at my enemies before, and I felt a small sense of spiteful gratification for doing so. I hated them so much. Even though I splashed them with my coffee, he was still the winner. He was going home to have passionate heavenly sex with his beautiful girlfriend, and i was going home to my lonely room to sleep alone in my lonely bed.
“I wanted to do horrible things to that couple. I wanted to inflict pain on all young couples. It was around this point in my life that I realized I was capable of doing such things. I would happily do such things. I was capable of killing them, and i wanted to. I wanted to kill them slowly, to strip the skins off their flesh. They deserve it. The males deserve it for taking the females away from me, and the females deserve it for choosing those males instead of me.”
For the first time, he realizes he hates people who have sex so much, he’s ready to kill them.
“Ever since I was seventeen, I often fantasized about becoming powerful and inflicting suffering upon everyone who had wronged me in the past, but I never thought I would actually do it.”
“I realized that I wouldn’t hesitate to kill or even torture my hated enemies if I was given the opportunity.”
“I often fantasized about barging into their rooms while they were having sex and slashing them to death with my knife.”
More of the same continues. Elliot continues to make the effort to lose his virginity,
“I made a bid to do everything I could to lose my virginity in the few remaining days I had.”
“I walked over to the centre or Isla Vista every day and sat at one of the tables outside Domino’s Pizza, hoping against hope that a girl would come and talk to me. Why wouldn’t they? I looked good enough, didn’t I? Or did I not look good enough?”
And continues to be disappointed by the lack of beautiful, hot blondes walking up to him to offer themselves to him.
He makes a habit of throwing drinks at any people he sees that appear happy or in a relationship.
Elliot continues to detail every incident that upsets him, every person he feels is beneath him, every time a couple’s existence ruins his day. He continues to throw temper tantrums. He continues to hate and blame women.
“Then they had the audacity to tell me they lost their virginity long ago, bragging about the girls they slept with. I particularly hated Angel because of his ugly pig-face. How could such an ugly animal have had sexual experiences with girls, and yet I haven’t? What was wrong with this world?”
He continues to attack people he hates, and then act surprised and indignant when they retaliate.
“The ugly pig kept acting as if girls thought he was more attractive than me. Hah! I am a beautiful, magnificent gentleman and he is a low-class, pig-faced thug.”
Addison and he make amends, of a sort, but “I never forget. I never forgive. One day I’ll show him how superior I am.”
James, meanwhile, after 14 years of being Elliot’s one constant friend, is finally too disturbed by Elliot, and ends the friendship.
Elliot becomes more and more obsessed with clothes, and starts to wear exclusively designer items.
“I tried to adopt a sophisticated and suave persona, and made my accent sound more eloquent.”
Most of this time is saturated with sentiments about how he feels he deserves a girlfriend, but doesn’t have one, and how unfair the world is, and how everyone is beneath him.
“While there, I overheard Philip telling Addison that some girls were checking him out.. Feeling jealous, I asked Philip if any of those girls checked me out, and he had the audacity to say no, none of them did. I felt so heartbroken that I left the two of them and cried to myself.
“How could girls check out Addison but not me?”
“I was incapable of being an outgoing, boisterous jock, and I didn’t want to be one. I was disgusted by such people, and I was disgusted at how girls were attracted to such filth. I wanted them to be attracted to me. That is how it should be, and I deserved it.”
Elliot also begins to show contempt for his mother, the one person who constantly seems to adore him, to spoil him, to believe the best of him.
“I always had to explain it to her – that I was a lonely, miserable, unwanted virgin who women treated with disdain – but she could never grasp how severe this was to me. After all, how could she? She was a woman herself.”
Throughout the manifesto, Elliot describes the girl he feels he deserves: beautiful, hot, blonde girls. For the first time, he shows his attitude towards girls who do not fit this description:
“I one day discovered that Spencer had a girl in his room. I couldn’t believe it. The short, chubby guy was able to get a girl in his room before I did! I was so shocked and outraged that I waited outside his room until the girl left, so I could get a glimpse of how she looked. To my relief, she wasn’t that attractive. What made me even more angry is that Spencer gave me a smug look when I saw the girl, even though she was ugly. He had the nerve to feel like he was better than me, just because he managed to get a girl over to the apartment before I did! I confronted him in the kitchen on that same night, telling him that he is foolish to feel proud about having an ugly whore in his room. This made him angry and offended, which is what I wanted. I wanted to offend him as punishment for his insolence. After that incident, the two of us became more and more hostile towards each other.”
His thoughts become more and more violent as time goes on,
“Those girls deserved to be dumped in boiling water for the crime of not giving me the attention and adoration I so rightly deserve!”
Elliot tells of an incident that seems to spark his first plans for a massacre.
He is extremely attracted to a girl in his math class, and desires to possess her. He never talks to her, but when he stalks her on Facebook, he finds out she has a boyfriend.
Elliot is deeply enraged, and before long, he decides it’s time to start planning his revenge on what he considers an unjust and unsympathetic world.
“I named it the Day of Retribution. It would be a day in which I exact my ultimate retribution and revenge on all of the hedonistic scum who enjoyed lives of pleasure they don’t deserve. If I can’t have it, I will destroy it. I will destroy all women because I can never have them. I will make them all suffer for rejecting me. I will arm myself with deadly weapons and wage a war against all women and the men they are attracted to. And I will slaughter them like the animals they are. If they won’t accept me among them, they are my enemies. They showed me no mercy, and in turn I will show them no mercy. The prospect will be so sweet, and justice will ultimately be served. And, of course, I would have to die in the act to avoid going to prison.”
For the next two years, Elliot bounces between planning the ‘Day of Retribution’ and harbouring hopes that he will become rich. When he attends the premiere of the ‘Hunger Games’, we catch a glimpse of exactly the type of person Elliot is,
“I didn’t own any suits, but I wore my extravagant Hugo Boss shirt, which I thought looked elegant enough to walk on the black carpet. As we were lining up for our walk on the black carpet, some dumb bitch of a security guard had the audacity to question ‘who the hell are these people’. This made me so enraged that I almost said ‘we are the people who are more important than you, you ugly cunt’, but Souyama’s publicist calmly informed her of our invitation. We then proceeded to walk across the long black carpet as camera’s flashed at us from one side, and a crowd of pathetic fans who reminded me of sheep cheered from the other side. I felt extremely gratified as walking on the black carpet with father and Soumaya, and I cockily smiled at all of the stupid fans who had to remain on the side, rubbing it right in their faces. There were some actors and celebrities on the carpet with us, and the paparazzi yelled at me a few times to get out of the way as they were taking pictures of some cunt actress. I discreetly gave those paparazzi pigs my middle finger. Elliot Rodger will not move aside for a stupid, good-for-nothing, over-glorified actress, whoever the fuck she was. I didn’t see.”
Money becomes one of his greatest obsessions, and he shows his characteristic attitude towards those who have it, and the belief that it will make his fantasy image of himself match his reality,
“I would take great pleasure in watching all of those rich families burn alive.”
“Wealth is one of the most important defining factors of self-worth and superiority.”
Elliot becomes so convinced that he deserves wealth, he believes it’s his destiny to win the lottery. When he doesn’t win,
“The winner was some guy from Riverside. He took MY money. What a waste. What an injustice.”
“That night, I threw a wild tantrum, screaming and crying for hours on end. I raged at the entire world, thrashing at my bed with my wooden practice sword and slashing at the air with my pocket knife.”
This incident causes Elliot to return focus to his plans for a Day of Retribution, and he starts to visit the shooting range as practice for his planned massacre.
“I imagined how sweet it would be to slaughter all of those evil, slutty bitches who rejected me, along with the fraternity jocks they throw themselves at. To see them running from me in fear as I kill them left and right, that would be the ultimate retribution. Only then would I have all the power. They treated me like an insignificant little mouse, but on the Day of Retribution, I would be a God to them.”
Elliot decides his future will be one of two things. He will either become wealthy at a young age and therefore able to attract a lot of beautiful women, or he will exact his revenge. He rambles on and on,
“My life stayed stagnant and miserable, and my hatred towards everyone, especially women, for depriving me of a happy life only grew stronger.”
“They deserved to die horrible, painful deaths just for the crime of enjoying a better life than me.”
“No one respects a man who is unable to get a woman.”
Again, he enters a lottery. Again, he loses and throws a tantrum. Again, he resumes plans for the Day of Retribution, and this time he buys himself a gun.
His hatred becomes fuelled mostly by misogyny.
“I hated all those obnoxious, boisterous men who were able to enjoy pleasurable sex lives with beautiful girls, but I hated the girl’s even more, because they were the ones who chose those men instead of me. It was their choice. They are the ones who deprived me of love and sex.”
“I am like a god, and my purpose is to exact ultimate Retribution on all of the impurities I see in the world.”
Elliot eventually comes across an online forum that seems to echo and confirm his views on women,
“I came across the website PUAHate.com. It is a forum full of men who are starved of sex, just like me.
“Reading the posts on that website only confirmed many of the theories I had about how wicked and degenerate women really are.”
“The website PUAHate is very depressing. It shows just how bleak and cruel the world is due to the evilness of women.”
“Women must be punished for their crimes of rejecting such a magnificent gentleman as myself.”
“None of the beautiful blonde girls showed any interest in having sex with me. Not one girl. These are crimes that cannot go unpunished.”
“My hatred for the female gender could grow no stronger. It was too much.”
Elliot sees a few more councillors, and after a brief time with a female councillor, he reveals why he never considered hiring a prostitute,
“I decided not to have any more female councillors. It had the same effect as hiring a prostitute, I imagine. It temporarily feels good for the moment, but afterward it makes one feel like a pathetic loser for having to hire a girl when other men could get the experience for free.”
Eventually, Elliot decides to give “one last chance”, and women one last chance to sleep with him.
“I was giving the female gender one last chance to provide me with the pleasures I deserved from them.”
This time, instead of sitting at a pizza place and waiting for girls to come offer themselves to him, he goes to a house party,
“I came across this Asian guy who was talking to a white girl. The sight of that filled me with rage. I always felt as if white girls thought less of me because I was half-Asian, but then I see this white girl at the party talking to a full-blooded Asian. I never had that kind of attention from a white girl! And white girls are the only ones I’m attracted to, especially the blondes. How could an ugly Asian attract the attention of a white girl, while a beautiful Eurasian like myself never had any attention from them?”
Angry with this couple, he aggressively bumps into him. They assume he’s just drunk. Elliot furiously insults the Asian and walks outside, where he spots a group of happy people, girls and guys. He starts to insult them, and they laugh insult him back. Enraged and wanting to hurt them, he tries to push as many as he good off a ledge. “My main target was the girls”. He fails to push any off, and is instead pushed off himself. He breaks his leg in the fall.
He tries to go home, but then realising he’s lost his expensive sunglasses, he returns to the house. This time, he is beaten up.
“It was the first time in my life that I had been truly beaten up physically to the point where my face was bruised up. I had suffered a lot of bullying in my life, but most of it wasn’t physical. I had never been beaten and humiliated that badly. Everyone in Isla Vista saw what happened, and it was truly horrific.”
While his leg is broken, he has to postpone the Day of Retribution, but he feels he is ready for it regardless.
“I was now armed with weapons, possessed great intelligence and philosophical insight, with the willpower to exact the most catastrophic act of vengeance the world will ever see.”
“I thought it to be such a tragedy that I was actually going to wage war against women and all of humanity. But then again, women’s rejection of me was a declaration of war.”
He also decides to murder his younger brother, Jazz.
“I will not allow the boy to surpass me at everything, to live the life I’ve always wanted. It’s not fair that he has the chance to have a pleasurable life while I’ve been denied it. It will be a hard thing to do, because I had really bonded with my little brother in the last year, and he respected and looked up to me. But I would have to do it. If I can’t live a pleasurable life, then neither will he! I will not let him put my legacy to shame.
“In order to kill Jazz, I would have to kill Soumaya too, but that would be easy.”
During this time, his parents continue to try help him. They arrange to send him to a psychiatrist, who prescribes a medicine that he refuses to take.
“To make me feel more confident, my mother provided me with a better car to drive in Santa Barbara, a BMW 3 series Coupe.”
He continues to express hatred for anyone having sex that’s not him, including his younger sister and his once only female friend, Maddy. He also expects others to understand that these people are, to him, enemies.
“They decided to take my sister’s boyfriend Samuel to England with them, and upon hearing this I became infuriated. Samuel was my enemy, someone who had enjoyed a happy life of sex while I have starved for years. And now my own mother was paying for his ticket to England, something he doesn’t deserve. I felt so betrayed by my mother because of this. She should have been more considerate for how I would feel. I am her son, and she should be on my side. But then again, my mother is a woman, and women are mentally ill. There was no way she could possibly understand my point of view.”
Continue to Part 6 here.
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This summary is divided into five parts.
Read Part 4 here.
Part 5: 19 - 22 years old
The short summary:
Elliot gets angrier and angrier, and eventually decides to carry out a Day of Retribution during which he’ll go on a murderous rampage as an act of revenge on women for not giving him sex, and men for having sex when he does not.
He spends some time playing the lottery in a hope to become rich, and he decides he will either become rich young or carry out this Day of Retribution.
Eventually, an incident occurs during which he attacks some people, is attacked in return, and breaks his leg. He refuses psychiatric help, and he makes solid plans for the Day of Retribution, even buying himself guns.
His attitude towards women is now unbridled hatred, as he feels they have made his life a misery because they refuse to have sex with him.
The long summary:
Extended Summary
Elliot’s anger and hatred continues. Beautiful blonde women do not come and offer themselves to him in Santa Barbara, and other people that he considers less worthy than himself continue to have sex.
He mentions a few incidents in which he feels particularly, even more than usual, forced to suffer horrendous injustices. He recounts the following, naming it a “vile incident”.
“And then this black boy named Chance said that he lost his virginity when he was only thirteen! In addition, he said the girl he lost his virginity to was a blonde white girl! I was so enraged that I almost splashed him with my orange juice. I indignantly told him that I did not believe him, and then I went to my room to cry. I cried and cried and cried, and then I called my mother and cried to her on the phone.
How could an inferior, ugly black boy be able to get a white girl and not me? I am beautiful, and I am half white myself. I am descended from British Aristocracy. He is descended from slaves. I deserve it more. I tried not to believe his foul words, but they were already said, and it was hard to erase from my mind. If this is actually true, if this ugly black filth was able to have sex with a blonde white girl at the age of thirteen while I’ve had to suffer virginity all my life, then this just proves how ridiculous the female gender is. They would give themselves to this filthly scum, but they reject ME? The injustice!”
This incident in particular causes Elliot to conclude:
“Females truly have something mentally wrong with them. Their minds are flawed, and at this point in my life I was beginning to see it.”
Every happy couple is, he feels, a direct attack on him. He starts to become extremely aggressive towards them, and eventually the sight of a happy couple infuriates him so much, he throws his drink at them.
“I had never struck back at my enemies before, and I felt a small sense of spiteful gratification for doing so. I hated them so much. Even though I splashed them with my coffee, he was still the winner. He was going home to have passionate heavenly sex with his beautiful girlfriend, and i was going home to my lonely room to sleep alone in my lonely bed.
“I wanted to do horrible things to that couple. I wanted to inflict pain on all young couples. It was around this point in my life that I realized I was capable of doing such things. I would happily do such things. I was capable of killing them, and i wanted to. I wanted to kill them slowly, to strip the skins off their flesh. They deserve it. The males deserve it for taking the females away from me, and the females deserve it for choosing those males instead of me.”
For the first time, he realizes he hates people who have sex so much, he’s ready to kill them.
“Ever since I was seventeen, I often fantasized about becoming powerful and inflicting suffering upon everyone who had wronged me in the past, but I never thought I would actually do it.”
“I realized that I wouldn’t hesitate to kill or even torture my hated enemies if I was given the opportunity.”
“I often fantasized about barging into their rooms while they were having sex and slashing them to death with my knife.”
More of the same continues. Elliot continues to make the effort to lose his virginity,
“I made a bid to do everything I could to lose my virginity in the few remaining days I had.”
“I walked over to the centre or Isla Vista every day and sat at one of the tables outside Domino’s Pizza, hoping against hope that a girl would come and talk to me. Why wouldn’t they? I looked good enough, didn’t I? Or did I not look good enough?”
And continues to be disappointed by the lack of beautiful, hot blondes walking up to him to offer themselves to him.
He makes a habit of throwing drinks at any people he sees that appear happy or in a relationship.
Elliot continues to detail every incident that upsets him, every person he feels is beneath him, every time a couple’s existence ruins his day. He continues to throw temper tantrums. He continues to hate and blame women.
“Then they had the audacity to tell me they lost their virginity long ago, bragging about the girls they slept with. I particularly hated Angel because of his ugly pig-face. How could such an ugly animal have had sexual experiences with girls, and yet I haven’t? What was wrong with this world?”
He continues to attack people he hates, and then act surprised and indignant when they retaliate.
“The ugly pig kept acting as if girls thought he was more attractive than me. Hah! I am a beautiful, magnificent gentleman and he is a low-class, pig-faced thug.”
Addison and he make amends, of a sort, but “I never forget. I never forgive. One day I’ll show him how superior I am.”
James, meanwhile, after 14 years of being Elliot’s one constant friend, is finally too disturbed by Elliot, and ends the friendship.
Elliot becomes more and more obsessed with clothes, and starts to wear exclusively designer items.
“I tried to adopt a sophisticated and suave persona, and made my accent sound more eloquent.”
Most of this time is saturated with sentiments about how he feels he deserves a girlfriend, but doesn’t have one, and how unfair the world is, and how everyone is beneath him.
“While there, I overheard Philip telling Addison that some girls were checking him out.. Feeling jealous, I asked Philip if any of those girls checked me out, and he had the audacity to say no, none of them did. I felt so heartbroken that I left the two of them and cried to myself.
“How could girls check out Addison but not me?”
“I was incapable of being an outgoing, boisterous jock, and I didn’t want to be one. I was disgusted by such people, and I was disgusted at how girls were attracted to such filth. I wanted them to be attracted to me. That is how it should be, and I deserved it.”
Elliot also begins to show contempt for his mother, the one person who constantly seems to adore him, to spoil him, to believe the best of him.
“I always had to explain it to her – that I was a lonely, miserable, unwanted virgin who women treated with disdain – but she could never grasp how severe this was to me. After all, how could she? She was a woman herself.”
Throughout the manifesto, Elliot describes the girl he feels he deserves: beautiful, hot, blonde girls. For the first time, he shows his attitude towards girls who do not fit this description:
“I one day discovered that Spencer had a girl in his room. I couldn’t believe it. The short, chubby guy was able to get a girl in his room before I did! I was so shocked and outraged that I waited outside his room until the girl left, so I could get a glimpse of how she looked. To my relief, she wasn’t that attractive. What made me even more angry is that Spencer gave me a smug look when I saw the girl, even though she was ugly. He had the nerve to feel like he was better than me, just because he managed to get a girl over to the apartment before I did! I confronted him in the kitchen on that same night, telling him that he is foolish to feel proud about having an ugly whore in his room. This made him angry and offended, which is what I wanted. I wanted to offend him as punishment for his insolence. After that incident, the two of us became more and more hostile towards each other.”
His thoughts become more and more violent as time goes on,
“Those girls deserved to be dumped in boiling water for the crime of not giving me the attention and adoration I so rightly deserve!”
Elliot tells of an incident that seems to spark his first plans for a massacre.
He is extremely attracted to a girl in his math class, and desires to possess her. He never talks to her, but when he stalks her on Facebook, he finds out she has a boyfriend.
Elliot is deeply enraged, and before long, he decides it’s time to start planning his revenge on what he considers an unjust and unsympathetic world.
“I named it the Day of Retribution. It would be a day in which I exact my ultimate retribution and revenge on all of the hedonistic scum who enjoyed lives of pleasure they don’t deserve. If I can’t have it, I will destroy it. I will destroy all women because I can never have them. I will make them all suffer for rejecting me. I will arm myself with deadly weapons and wage a war against all women and the men they are attracted to. And I will slaughter them like the animals they are. If they won’t accept me among them, they are my enemies. They showed me no mercy, and in turn I will show them no mercy. The prospect will be so sweet, and justice will ultimately be served. And, of course, I would have to die in the act to avoid going to prison.”
For the next two years, Elliot bounces between planning the ‘Day of Retribution’ and harbouring hopes that he will become rich. When he attends the premiere of the ‘Hunger Games’, we catch a glimpse of exactly the type of person Elliot is,
“I didn’t own any suits, but I wore my extravagant Hugo Boss shirt, which I thought looked elegant enough to walk on the black carpet. As we were lining up for our walk on the black carpet, some dumb bitch of a security guard had the audacity to question ‘who the hell are these people’. This made me so enraged that I almost said ‘we are the people who are more important than you, you ugly cunt’, but Souyama’s publicist calmly informed her of our invitation. We then proceeded to walk across the long black carpet as camera’s flashed at us from one side, and a crowd of pathetic fans who reminded me of sheep cheered from the other side. I felt extremely gratified as walking on the black carpet with father and Soumaya, and I cockily smiled at all of the stupid fans who had to remain on the side, rubbing it right in their faces. There were some actors and celebrities on the carpet with us, and the paparazzi yelled at me a few times to get out of the way as they were taking pictures of some cunt actress. I discreetly gave those paparazzi pigs my middle finger. Elliot Rodger will not move aside for a stupid, good-for-nothing, over-glorified actress, whoever the fuck she was. I didn’t see.”
Money becomes one of his greatest obsessions, and he shows his characteristic attitude towards those who have it, and the belief that it will make his fantasy image of himself match his reality,
“I would take great pleasure in watching all of those rich families burn alive.”
“Wealth is one of the most important defining factors of self-worth and superiority.”
Elliot becomes so convinced that he deserves wealth, he believes it’s his destiny to win the lottery. When he doesn’t win,
“The winner was some guy from Riverside. He took MY money. What a waste. What an injustice.”
“That night, I threw a wild tantrum, screaming and crying for hours on end. I raged at the entire world, thrashing at my bed with my wooden practice sword and slashing at the air with my pocket knife.”
This incident causes Elliot to return focus to his plans for a Day of Retribution, and he starts to visit the shooting range as practice for his planned massacre.
“I imagined how sweet it would be to slaughter all of those evil, slutty bitches who rejected me, along with the fraternity jocks they throw themselves at. To see them running from me in fear as I kill them left and right, that would be the ultimate retribution. Only then would I have all the power. They treated me like an insignificant little mouse, but on the Day of Retribution, I would be a God to them.”
Elliot decides his future will be one of two things. He will either become wealthy at a young age and therefore able to attract a lot of beautiful women, or he will exact his revenge. He rambles on and on,
“My life stayed stagnant and miserable, and my hatred towards everyone, especially women, for depriving me of a happy life only grew stronger.”
“They deserved to die horrible, painful deaths just for the crime of enjoying a better life than me.”
“No one respects a man who is unable to get a woman.”
Again, he enters a lottery. Again, he loses and throws a tantrum. Again, he resumes plans for the Day of Retribution, and this time he buys himself a gun.
His hatred becomes fuelled mostly by misogyny.
“I hated all those obnoxious, boisterous men who were able to enjoy pleasurable sex lives with beautiful girls, but I hated the girl’s even more, because they were the ones who chose those men instead of me. It was their choice. They are the ones who deprived me of love and sex.”
“I am like a god, and my purpose is to exact ultimate Retribution on all of the impurities I see in the world.”
Elliot eventually comes across an online forum that seems to echo and confirm his views on women,
“I came across the website PUAHate.com. It is a forum full of men who are starved of sex, just like me.
“Reading the posts on that website only confirmed many of the theories I had about how wicked and degenerate women really are.”
“The website PUAHate is very depressing. It shows just how bleak and cruel the world is due to the evilness of women.”
“Women must be punished for their crimes of rejecting such a magnificent gentleman as myself.”
“None of the beautiful blonde girls showed any interest in having sex with me. Not one girl. These are crimes that cannot go unpunished.”
“My hatred for the female gender could grow no stronger. It was too much.”
Elliot sees a few more councillors, and after a brief time with a female councillor, he reveals why he never considered hiring a prostitute,
“I decided not to have any more female councillors. It had the same effect as hiring a prostitute, I imagine. It temporarily feels good for the moment, but afterward it makes one feel like a pathetic loser for having to hire a girl when other men could get the experience for free.”
Eventually, Elliot decides to give “one last chance”, and women one last chance to sleep with him.
“I was giving the female gender one last chance to provide me with the pleasures I deserved from them.”
This time, instead of sitting at a pizza place and waiting for girls to come offer themselves to him, he goes to a house party,
“I came across this Asian guy who was talking to a white girl. The sight of that filled me with rage. I always felt as if white girls thought less of me because I was half-Asian, but then I see this white girl at the party talking to a full-blooded Asian. I never had that kind of attention from a white girl! And white girls are the only ones I’m attracted to, especially the blondes. How could an ugly Asian attract the attention of a white girl, while a beautiful Eurasian like myself never had any attention from them?”
Angry with this couple, he aggressively bumps into him. They assume he’s just drunk. Elliot furiously insults the Asian and walks outside, where he spots a group of happy people, girls and guys. He starts to insult them, and they laugh insult him back. Enraged and wanting to hurt them, he tries to push as many as he good off a ledge. “My main target was the girls”. He fails to push any off, and is instead pushed off himself. He breaks his leg in the fall.
He tries to go home, but then realising he’s lost his expensive sunglasses, he returns to the house. This time, he is beaten up.
“It was the first time in my life that I had been truly beaten up physically to the point where my face was bruised up. I had suffered a lot of bullying in my life, but most of it wasn’t physical. I had never been beaten and humiliated that badly. Everyone in Isla Vista saw what happened, and it was truly horrific.”
While his leg is broken, he has to postpone the Day of Retribution, but he feels he is ready for it regardless.
“I was now armed with weapons, possessed great intelligence and philosophical insight, with the willpower to exact the most catastrophic act of vengeance the world will ever see.”
“I thought it to be such a tragedy that I was actually going to wage war against women and all of humanity. But then again, women’s rejection of me was a declaration of war.”
He also decides to murder his younger brother, Jazz.
“I will not allow the boy to surpass me at everything, to live the life I’ve always wanted. It’s not fair that he has the chance to have a pleasurable life while I’ve been denied it. It will be a hard thing to do, because I had really bonded with my little brother in the last year, and he respected and looked up to me. But I would have to do it. If I can’t live a pleasurable life, then neither will he! I will not let him put my legacy to shame.
“In order to kill Jazz, I would have to kill Soumaya too, but that would be easy.”
During this time, his parents continue to try help him. They arrange to send him to a psychiatrist, who prescribes a medicine that he refuses to take.
“To make me feel more confident, my mother provided me with a better car to drive in Santa Barbara, a BMW 3 series Coupe.”
He continues to express hatred for anyone having sex that’s not him, including his younger sister and his once only female friend, Maddy. He also expects others to understand that these people are, to him, enemies.
“They decided to take my sister’s boyfriend Samuel to England with them, and upon hearing this I became infuriated. Samuel was my enemy, someone who had enjoyed a happy life of sex while I have starved for years. And now my own mother was paying for his ticket to England, something he doesn’t deserve. I felt so betrayed by my mother because of this. She should have been more considerate for how I would feel. I am her son, and she should be on my side. But then again, my mother is a woman, and women are mentally ill. There was no way she could possibly understand my point of view.”
Continue to Part 6 here.
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