This poem is published in vangile gantsho's poetry novella red cotton. red cotton is an exploration of what it means to be black, queer, and woman in modern-day South Africa. gantsho interrogates being non-conformist in both a traditional-cultural-religious upbringing and a more liberal yet equally-oppressive urban socialisation. WARNING: The content of this poem is of an adult nature.
smallgirl with moths in her mouth
speaks anger in glances knows the dagger of words
smallgirl big voice moves in silence
knows how earthquakes begin
in the rumbling of her stomach
entire families collapse
smallgirl cares too much for such a small girl
smallgirl with treacherous eyes
carries too much feeling in her lungs
knows the sting of lonely
smallgirl sees too much breathes too much
takes up too much air
smallgirl is too much mirror and expectation
too much wanting more
smallgirl should know better than to try fight the sun
smallgirl with hands of spades
smallgirl dreams too much. hopes too much
wants to plant and grow
smallgirl thinks she is the ocean
smallgirl is a stream
smallgirl will break her heart with all this want
smallgirl is not even the wind
smallgirl must learn to swallow
and be pretty