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On the 1st January, 2012 at 5:30am my entire world changed with a single call from the hospital saying my dad was no longer.
I didn't know whether to cry, comfort my mum and gran or call my family to break the news to them.
A year prior to this Dad was diagnosed with cancer and it was such a difficult year watching him fade away. A giant of a man with such a zest for life reduced to almost a baby in a wheelchair.
I couldn't handle seeing Dad this way. It broke my heart every day.
The days the followed seemed a total blur to me but I had to be strong and hold things together as mum and gran (dad was her only child) were completely broken.
It was only a few weeks later did we really find out how big a gap there was in our home since Dad was no longer there.
Every Birthday, Father's Day, Diwali and Christmas was and will always be empty and filled with tears. I often am so busy worrying about mum and gran and my new responsibilities I forget about me and my grieving process.
Everyone keeps saying be strong for gran and mum which I do ... But what about me?
Two years later the void in our lives is still there, the pain, the tears and the memories still remain. They say it does get easier but believe me it doesn't.
Every day becomes a new challenge... And there are more challenges in the days ahead.
Dad was an amazing man who lived life to the fullest, he gave us amazing adventures and life experiences to which I am so grateful for.
New Years Day / Eve will always remain the saddest days for all my life, even when I am grey and old.
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I didn't know whether to cry, comfort my mum and gran or call my family to break the news to them.
A year prior to this Dad was diagnosed with cancer and it was such a difficult year watching him fade away. A giant of a man with such a zest for life reduced to almost a baby in a wheelchair.
I couldn't handle seeing Dad this way. It broke my heart every day.
The days the followed seemed a total blur to me but I had to be strong and hold things together as mum and gran (dad was her only child) were completely broken.
It was only a few weeks later did we really find out how big a gap there was in our home since Dad was no longer there.
Every Birthday, Father's Day, Diwali and Christmas was and will always be empty and filled with tears. I often am so busy worrying about mum and gran and my new responsibilities I forget about me and my grieving process.
Everyone keeps saying be strong for gran and mum which I do ... But what about me?
Two years later the void in our lives is still there, the pain, the tears and the memories still remain. They say it does get easier but believe me it doesn't.
Every day becomes a new challenge... And there are more challenges in the days ahead.
Dad was an amazing man who lived life to the fullest, he gave us amazing adventures and life experiences to which I am so grateful for.
New Years Day / Eve will always remain the saddest days for all my life, even when I am grey and old.
Find more from Verushka follow her on Twitter and visit her blog.
Follow Women24 on Twitter and like us on Facebook.
